Psalm 84

Psalm 84.  "How lovely is your dwelling place, O Lord of hosts! My soul longs, yes, faints for the courts of the Lord, my heart and flesh sing for joy to the living God....Blessed are those who dwell in your house, ever singing your praise!....Blessed are those whose strength is in you....They go from strength to strength...For a day in your courts is better than a thousand elsewhere...blessed is the one who trusts in you."

My trust is in the Lord, especially when I do not get the news from the doctors that I had been hoping for.  I had a CAT scan on Tuesday, and also saw my oncologist, Dr Parapatti.  She confirmed that the tumor had grown slightly but her major concern for me at this time is that my right kidney was enlarged, about 4 times as large as normal.  Last month when I had the stint replacement, it was normal.  There are no clear answers right now as to why the infection happened.  I saw my urology doctor yesterday and had a catheter inserted, which will be in place until Monday when I will have an ultra sound.  I am also taking a very strong antibiotic and I feel 100% better today than yesterday . This is good news because if I had not responded to treatment, other measures would have to happen.  I pray this clears up soon.

It is important to have good kidney function for chemo.  This is the way the body filters out the drugs and cleanses the body.  I look forward to chemo because this is how my tumor level got to normal in March of this year.  Chemo worked even though one of the drugs was found not compatible for me, through a new blood test.   This time I will have the one drug that did work, plus a new one.  

So, I wait for Monday and look forward to a good report.  I can tell you that if I did not know the Lord and rely on His strength, I would not be able to make it through some days without being in utter despair.