John 16:32

John 16:32. ".....Yet I am not alone, for the Father is with me."

I had surgery today to replace the stint in my urethera.  The urologist replaced the stint with a metal one that will not need replacement for a year.  The one that I had needed replacement every 4-6 months, so this is much better.  It is also better because the tumor is pushing against this area, and the old plastic one stood the chance of being pushed in and not allow the kidney to transport the toxins out of my body.  With upcoming chemo, this is very important.

This is my 3rd stint and the procedure is becoming routine for me.  I could not drive myself so I had a ride there and back home ,but no one was at the hospital while I was having this procedure.  I want to share a comforting thing that happened while I was alone in my room, waiting to go into surgery.  I was prepped and ready.  My door was open and I could see the hallway.  I saw a woman being escorted to surgery and behind her walked her aging husband, who was going with her as far as he could.  I began to have feelings of sadness at being alone, and it was at that time I shared how I was feeling with the Lord.  I know that he knows all this but I needed to pray about it.  As I was praying and talking to God about how I felt, instantly, I felt this "electric" feeling of light cover my body.   This has happened to me before, and I know it is the Lord.  During this time, all feelings of despair and sorrow vanished.  I know that my room was alive with his spirit.  I do not cry easily or often about my health.  But what does bring me to tears is someone saying they are praying for me and times such as this when I know that I not alone.  Well...my eyes teared up and I wanted to let go and let it all out in the beauty of what I had just felt. Then I realized that if the doctors or nursing staff came in and saw me bawling my eyes out, they they would rightly assume that I was very upset about surgery. Then I saw the humor in my ridiculous behavior and had a good laugh at myself while wiping away my tears of joy.

We are not alone, ever.  No manner the circumstance.  God is with us.  I have a relationship with the Lord and I talk with him throughout the day .  I have times of "formal" prayer but mostly I just talk to him all day.  I cannot imagine going through this cancer without him.  I can only imagine, with heartfelt sympathy, what the thoughts are of those who have not accepted Jesus as their saviour.  He promised before his crucification that when he left this earth, that he would send a helper to those who believe, which is the Holy Spirit.  "Do you not know that you are God's temple and that God's Spirit dwells in you?" (I Cornthians 3:16) 

Accept Jesus as your savior and you will never be alone.