I have to admit, that I had to look up Psalm 55:22 because I could not remember the verse. The Lord lead me to this verse the first day that I started my blog, and it has been my identity since then. We all have burdens, but it is what we do with them that defines us. Those who call upon the name of Jesus as their Lord and Savior have the assurance that we are never alone, but sometimes we have a hard time with that truth. Sometimes we need to walk through tough times to see just how much he loves us. The "world" would say that if he loved us, he would not allow bad things to happen, but that is just not true. Even Psalm 55:22 sounds as if he would not allow this to happen, but this is written for those who have given their life to Jesus. I am not righteous. I am a sinner but because I have given my life to Jesus, he says that I am righteous. It is his righteousness, not mine.
So much as happened since I last posted my blog. It was decided that it would be in my best interest to not have any more chemo....at least for awhile. Chemo had worked really well for me and I responded well, but I was told from the beginning that this could change. The combination of weight loss from surgery and chemo has left me very weak but I am slowly getting better. The last time I wrote in my blog, chemo had brought my tumor marker down to about 60, but since I cannot have chemo right now, the marker has gone up to 135, which is a all-time high for me.
My prayer requests:
That I will daily turn all my burdens over to the Lord.
I ask for strength in my right hip area because I sometimes have a hard time walking.
Weight gain....I would love to gain 20-25 lbs. Pray for an appetite.
Pray that the tumors are contained and do not spread. I have tumors in my right colin area and in my lungs.
My surgeons told me in Feb of this year that a CAT scan showed what they termed a "mass" located near the intestine and colin, where the tumors are located. I was told that it could be tumors that are breaking down. They advised if surgery was performed it could be very risky. The decision was made to not do anything at that time. I actually forgot about it until about a month ago. In a week's time, I had an area on my right hip that became inflamed and was very painful. What happened next is something I refer to as a "God thing". The mass started draining from the inflamed area. The doctors could not explain the drainage but I knew that the Lord had chosen to rid my body of these toxins. I still have some drainage but I think of it as a good thing.
Thank you for praying for me.